Staying in today is sometimes really hard for me, even though I know how important it is. It does me no good to go into the future regarding a looming deadline, or in some cases anticipation for something good even though I have no actual reason to believe that what I want or dream of will actually come true. The more I think about things that are not even a current reality, the more I cheat my children out of focused one on one time. This also goes for dwelling on my past or having past regrets - there is no reason to go there. All that matters for me is right now and how I can make the right choices to the best of my ability. Truthfully, if I screw up which I often do - I have to process it, learn from it and keep on going.
I used to be temporarily paralyzed by set backs and sometimes physically effected by negative parts of my life that I could do nothing about. I didn't know how to effectively deal with my feelings or emotions. I am glad that I no longer have those issues but it is still easy for me to go into my head and spend too much time thinking about things that have nothing to do with right now. What helps me most is to write down my concerns, or what I am anxious about and keep it in my "God Box". That way I just release those things I can't control and have no power over and just keep on doing what I need to do on a daily basis. It is not easy to do this as I used to try and control every single thing around me - my kids, my exes, my job, and almost every aspect of my life that I could. After trying to do that for many years and then finally realizing that the only thing I could actually control were my own thoughts, actions and how I choose to react to everything going on around me, I was pretty frustrated and unhappy in life. Everything I tried to do in regards to attempting to control everyone else did not turn out how I wanted it to and it took my many failures to have a final 'aha' moment to where I realized I gotta focus on me and not everyone else.
The best thing I can do now is keep reminding myself when I have an issue or concern that I cannot control - give it up and rest in the fact that if it's meant to be, it will be and that sometimes what I wish for really comes about in a totally different way that I would ever expect anyway. It's also good to not have expectations, but I struggle really hard with that, too. I just need to write this down to myself as a reminder because I do need to focus on the now, on my daily responsibilities and if something wonderful comes my way in the near future, I can embrace it when it happens. If it does not, then so be it - I will keep doing what I am doing and becoming who I know I want to be regardless. I hope everyone has a great week and remembers to stay in today so that you are not robbed of important moments with your family or friends because of being preoccupied about a future or past event that does not even matter right now. Sometimes when I let my thoughts wander a little too far, I really have to reel them in and remind myself of what is really important which is RIGHT NOW, not two days, two months or even a year from now.
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